Amanda Holden has spoken out about the traumatic birth of her second daughter Hollie, saying that it was the worst experience of her life.
The actress, who returns to the judging panel of Britain’s Got Talent when the new series begins on Saturday night, suffered a haemorrhage shortly after Hollie’s birth 15 months ago, which left her fighting for her life in intensive care.
And she said that having a family has totally changed her attitude towards death.
“Because I’m a mum, I don’t want to die,” she told the Mirror. “If I didn’t have children and somethng had happened to me and I’d nearly died, I wouldn’t care.
“I don’t mean to sound flippant, but now I’ve got children, I want to see them grow up I want to live, for them.
She added that it was the thought of her family which helped her to get through the trauma.
“I got through all this by thinking ‘what is most important?'” she said. “It is about your children, your love life, your home life. “If we don’t have that we haven’t got anything. I’ve known it but you re-learn it.”
Amanda also revealed that she and husband Chris Hughes did not tell their older daughter Lexi the full details of Hollie’s dramatic birth.
“Lexi has no clue what happened to me,” she confessed. “I don’t want her to think having children is a terrible, scary thing – I want grandchildren.”
Britain’s Got Talent – which will reunite Amanda with fellow judges David Walliams, Alesha Dixon and Simon Cowell – kicks off on ITV1 at 7pm.